Friday, June 18, 2010

Just an Update...

So recently, the financial institution I work for has found another way to disappoint me. But its cool, iAlready know how to deal with "them"..u have to stay in their face until the get sick of you and give u whatchu been askin for....

In other news, I'm ready for my trip to Hilton Head to see my bff Jenji..(Jen-Jee). She left May 22nd and I've missed her TOO much! Lol..that's all imma say about THAT!!

I think life is takin a turn for me. I have a good job (that I hate) and I've recently added to my home studio, so the music is crankin!!

Don't worry, I'm still gonna lace my followers with the poetry u look for when u hit up the blog...*ayo*

Twisted visions, I pay attention and listen close...
They say I'm sick but they can't provide me with the proper dose....
Nothin else has serves as adequate, I keep searchin...
Let the heart heal, doesn't mean it stops hurtin...

But hopefully, this new endevor acts as medication...
Motivation for my soul to keep from hesitatin...
The complications of past filled with new frustrations...
The elevation of man, pride levitatin...

But I'm waitin...
And ill be here...
Til you're ready...

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Look For Me At Midnight

The heat beams intense,
No breeze in sight,
For miles and miles only pain and struggle await thee,

Look for me at Midnight...

Loneliness devours you,
Fear restricts you,
And heartache lingers,

Look for me at Midnight...

When the sky has fallen,
The ground has risen,
And ure caught somewhere in between the two,

Look for me at Midnight...

When the waves no longer crash,
And the sound of silence begins to drive u insane,

Look for me at Midnight...

If u find urself, BY yourself,
Inside yourself, beside yourself,

Look for me at Midnight...

the sun has fallen out of your sky,
Blackness plagues the horizon while only the thought of ur ultimate defeat crosses ur mind,
You know not what to do, prayer has worked thus far but now all u have left is looking forward to the answer,

The reply, the response...is coming...

Anxious, nervous, jittery, u shake in panic,
Tho not blind, your sight is fading,
Ur faith is brutally beaten by doubt,
U need a way out..

Look for me at Midnight...

The 11th hour is here...
10minutes in, the sting of despair has numbed ur soul..
20minutes in, the agony is understandably staggering...
30minutes in, you thought u were finished, but somehow ur physical outlasted ur mental anguish,
40minutes in, the pressure sets in and begins to crush u....

But look...

50minutes in, ure not done yet

Your suffering, that should have ended u 50minutes ago, has not destroyed you...

Not yet....

Beyond the screams of turmoil, you hear a voice..
11:51 has not killed you
11:52 has not brainwashed you
11:53 has not weakened your resolve
11:54 has not takin your spirit
11:55 brought you hope
11:56 carried you through the impossible
11:57 showed you how much you really cared
11:58 made you wait...

Wait.....

11:59 is here, ...and so are you...

The pain stops, the fear fades, your heart races, the tears dry,...
the sky breaks, the rain falls, the lightning strikes and cast a layer of light, to signify that your and the darkest hour has passed..
your time has come...
your love is here...
your heart is whole...
your search is complete...

Midnight...
Do you see me??