Another Day, A Lonely Dollar

Guess who....yep yep..at work again...hopefully, I won't hav this much blogging time on my habds when I start my new Job :-P
...But yea, the overcast awoke the author in me....so ride wit me...
--every breath taken is another conspiracy in the makin..
Cus my exhale will always prevail over the moments that take my breath away.
Its as if my brain keeps bringin me back to reality, like I'm just visiting fantasy to drop off my sanity...
So here I am...
How long can I persue what eludes me?..
How much time will it take for the puzzle to include me?..
I don't write in riddles to make it sound good..
I think in riddles cus that's how I found "good"...
The path less taken plays a big part in my shapin'...
I guess u cud say rare is common in me....
So as long as clouds run from the ground, I will search for what has been found...
Not by me, but by those around me...
I can't catch hold of it, even tho it surrounds me...
But I can wait...I mean I know I said I didn't want to...
But I can wait...
Cus good things come to those who wait..
Hatred comes to those who hate..
And those who go for what is theirs
Get their good, which makes them great...
I'm goin for mine...
And wait for God to tell me when to wait...
Author-Owt..

idk my bff Jill

Well I dnt really have much today, IM LIVIN'!!
Oh! I had my phone interview!..I think it went well, if I do say so myself :-)
Stay tuned! Big Money Here I Come!, pray for ya manz!

I gotta lil some'em for ya..
Keep up wit me..
-- So my mind flip flops on situations,
Station to station..
I gotta keep my grind mobile..
Never bein complacent..
Cus waitin...
Well waitin's not a strong point, tho patients is a virture..
My ambition's on a mission and its gettin close to curfew..
So before life's street lights come on, and I'm locked out tonight..
Imma run,
Chasin my dreams cus waitin jus doesn't seem right...
At least not right now..--
Author*Out

"Good Newz"..Another Day in the Life....

Wuddup wuddup wuddup....another day at wrk.
But good things have come, and I'm sure they will continue. For instance, my Team Kermit crew has started to take a more active role in their educational future..with three graduates, 1 who's in grad school, then two more headed out in may and December..then one goin back to finish up next semester....I'd say we gotta bright future ahead of us...
My new Winthrop homies seem to be holdin it down too..Big shout out to DDG(*Drop*Dead*Gorgeous)!! Lol they go hard..
Special shoutz to my camera woman K.Beezy and my lovely assistant LaLeezy lol..(I clearly just made those up)...lighter fluid anyone?? Lol
But ummmmmm yea...like I said, life is lookin up!
So I'm sittin in a car at my dead-end job, the one where they cut my hrs, yea, that one. And as me and my boy Jesus were discussin how we were gonna work out the bills, I get 2 messages to the crackberry, 1 sayin thanx for fillin out ur app, we'll be in touch...and a second saying, "we reviewd ur ap and would like to call u for an interview"...and as I tried to contain myself, and keep from walkin out of this job that very moment,...I heard Jesus say to me,"I dnt even know why u were trippin" lol....so yea, yall stay tuned for what I hope to be more good news :-)
Lata!!

Coke today....Pursuit of Happiness

I'm at wrk again....this seems to be where I come up with the majority of my blogging...
I just ate the best apple I've ever eaten lol...maybe I was just hungry..who knows..
Wrk sucks tho....I mean its good havin a job but aside from the fact that they're cuttin hrs, I really don't wanna be here..I'm at a point in my life that, if it doesn't make me happy, then find a way to do what does....
So that's where I'm headed...
I've come up with a plan, I'm starting the execution of said plan so I just have to stay on the ball....
U can roll with me or get rolled over...
My happiness is out there...
All I have to do is grind
And soon I will have whatever I set out to find..

Nah I tried..

So as Musiq Soulchild's "previous cats" bounces off the walls at 6am..I think to myself, why am I tryin so hard.....I loved you so hard,

I swear to all that I know, u were all that I wanted, you were it...
But I wasn't enough, u weren't ready for a real relationship,

Not cus u young, but u jus don't wanna be tied down..
So I'm forced everyday to ride round,
Wit this sinkin feelin, like the automatic windows to my soul jus continuously slide down....

I'm hurt...

Hurt bcus u then lable me like every other nigga....

Like I aim shot and killed u with every other trigga
Like I bounce around these woods like any ordinary tigga..

Nigga pls.....

Anything I ever did, to, with or for you was to keep you closer to me,
Then u push me away..
Which only made me see,
That all that was for nothin, so where does that leave me??...

(Your response goes here)..Ill wait........

But even then, u told me not to

So now someone new who comes along.. with barely a wrd she sings a song, creates a melody so familiar, it brings me out from under my blues, from under my pain, and above you...
But now I'm wrong??...
Is she wrong too??

Are we just a bunch of heartless individuals bcuz we won't cater to ur disregard for anyone elses feelins but ur own??....

Well from what I can tell,I think her heart is in the right place,.. tho she may not even know...
There's doors open to the room my heart dies in.. and she may not even go..

But the simple fact that she might..makes ME happy...
The simple fact that she. MIGHT care for me in the slightest bit
Even if just a friendship was born
brings a calm to my storm....

Then I share this with you
Only for you to call me, any other nigga??
U tell me to leave, then shoot me as I walk away..
So know this as u aim at me and try to kill me on this very day..
If I die,I pray idont, but know I tried my best..
And as I walk away from you, I'm nothin like the rest....
Wit no regrets, excuses, or the slightest little lie...
Whatever u say I didn't do...don't say I didn't try....
Author Owt...
-gone-

Thank You

JazZ tunes consume the background
Fillin the room wit ambiance
While I produce hallucinations of you dancin on the notes in the wind*
Seems u never fail to blow my mind*
But as the branches of these memories sway to and fro, only you could know about the unforgetable images left behind*
I don't think beautiful even begins to describe the vibe u create when u enter a room*
But seein as how my thesaurus is no where to be found and the words have seem to have takin flight from my tounge and the night is too young to call it one*
...I can only reffer to what's 'left' of the 'right' words so..*
With that said, or not said I give u my thoughts, feelins and emotions, deep enough to hold oceans and still too shallow to burry my souls necessity for you...just you..

Only you...You who conjured up feelins in me that I'd never known or even begin to phathom the possibility that I could have'em...but i did...and I do..so thank you...thank you..thank you

Thinkin Of A Master Plan...(2007-Current)

So its been months now and it seems like im "the man"..
Got women on my line-up and for each i gotta plan...
i mean dont get me wrong, cuz NO its nothin physical...
Im trynna get inside they hearts, figure out they spiritual..
<3
Kisses to the soul and embraces to the brain..
explorations and explanations of things you cant explain...
answers to my answers and questions to my thoughts...
a future to my present is a present seldom bought...
<3
If i look into your eyes, im jus trynna see me in'em
but no im not conceited, im jus seein if im winnin..
cuz if u and your peripherals are focused in on me..
then our future is the focal point lets focus in on WE..
<3
I know my past is history, but it made me who i am..
but I never lied or cheated cuz it wasnt in the plan..
but neither was the arguin, and fussin on the phone..
or the bitter break aways that put me here alone...
<3
Im not sayin that im sad or nothin, actually im good..
i needed time to look at me, and fix the things i could..
but i also needed time to say, "Boy, U are the truth"
U've seen the sun, the wind, the rain, and still u made it through..
<3
I broke some hearts along the way, for that I plead my case..
I tried, i did, i swear i did, but still it went to waste...
Some said i didnt care enough but couldnt have been more wrong..
i just cared more about the solution to your problem instead of singin that sad love song..
if you werent tryin to "fix n move"..but just wanted to sit and stew,
eventually u'd sit and lose, and i would have to up and cruise..
<3
Its not that im emotionless, i just have less emotions..
movies, tv, and music now have trapped you with their potion..
they want you to think its fine to sit and bathe in your depression..
while u pay some Shrink's college loans, by sittin in a session..
<3
but i plan to make it better tho..open up your eyes..
i know its blunt, but IM NOT TRYNNA GET UP IN YOUR THIGHS..
my master plan is bigger now, try to catch my drift..
cuz if you do we'll ride the tide, the present is our gift..
<3
i plan to show you now and forever that not all guys are lame..
we do alot of the same things but no we're not the same...
<3
u say u Fly, u Young u Sexy but ive come to this conclusion..
Some Women really wanna win..Some Wanna look good losin..
<3
but that time for me has come and gone, my plan is in the works
God said wuts for me is just for me so later for you jerks..
HE gave me tools, HE made me cool, HE showed me what to do
So spiritually im almost ready, time to make my move..
<3
But my list is gettin narrow now, i guess ill use my patients..
im not necessarily hirin', but im takin applications...
so if you think u qualify, to fit my master plan..
Just e-mail me your resume, or come straight to "the man"..